Healing with Grace: Our Cancer Journey

2nd of Jan 2022, while Chief was just getting out of his bedridden state and still not 100 percent better, Gracy suddenly asked for a vet visit and blood tests. It was a little unexpected since we had done a few tests in Nov itself and we dint see any out of the ordinary physical symptoms.

(Context: 2021 I started feeling something is going wrong in Gracy’s body everytime I sat down to do healing for her. But she always brushed it off saying it's nothing. I checked with a few very senior telepathic communicators to ask her the same to her but she never told us anything. But because I had the nagging feeling, I consulted multiple vets to run some basic tests atleast but we found nothing. Slowly around mid of the year she had a few instances of involuntary movement in her legs and I again took some consultations and we found some neuro issues that she has been having since a puppy that was not taken into consideration by any of our vets in other cities we lived in. While that diagnosis was spot on with the symptoms and it was on that paper, I still  just couldn’t brush off my feelings that there is something that is going on that has still not been found. But I had to make my peace with it somehow because we had done all the tests already for the last few months until Nov and nothing to be found.

Then comes 2nd Jan 2022, Gracy asks for the tests. In the last few years, if I have learnt anything is not to take my gut feeling lightly or their communication with me. So I took her to our vet again and asked for a basic CBC to start with. By this time I must have been sounding like a crazy obsessed person to our vet, more so because we were new to her, we had just recently just a few months back started taking consultations with her and she was the one who helped us find her neuro issues. Somehow that day we got the tests done. I dint expect anything so big, may be some organ related issue or so. We came back, very tired and slept off in the afternoon. I woke up to a message from our vet saying- “Nitasha, I don't want to panic you, but this is serious. She probably has cancer. But please don't panic, we will do further tests and then only we will conclude.” I don't know what it was, the fact that finally at least we were able to find the issue that was nagging me for more than a year now, or the fact that we have found the problem now so we can find a solution finally rather than shooting in the dark, or the fact that I have been just exhausted since 2019 with Chief’s health and the continuous care he needed that I was doing single handedly, barely sleeping most of the days or I was simply in a kind of shock, but trying to brave through it because there is no other way anyway- that this message from our vet gave me a very cool calm, deep sea like sensation on my chest. I took a deep breath, got up, freshened up and gave a call to our vet to understand the situation. She was very empathetic and explained the entire thing, the other possibilities for this parameter to show up like this, the prognosis, an approximate plan forward, etc.. I was very very calm unlike how I was when Chief had gotten unwell, may be Chief’s care had humbled me towards uncertainties and life a lot. I dint really ask a lot of questions at that time, but she did tell us we can ask whatever we can and since its a very rare form of cancer, she will do her best to help us get the info from wherever she can.. I just let my body and mind process it as we were getting ready for another battle within the ongoing battle.

Our vet again reassured me. One thing about our vet, she was really wonderful and helpful with that part, where she dint shy away from explaining the scenario in a clear way.

She then sent me a list of tests to be done, helped us get in touch with one of the best vet oncologists in the country, who lived and practiced in another city. Being in Ahmedabad, at that time, one dint get all the tests at one place. You have to go from one vet to another to get the tests done, if you want a reliable result. Also, certain diagnostic machines for animals were very limited and were to be found only in a few setups. And so the next day onwards for the 10 days we went on for multiple tests along with the ones suggested by our oncologist, to rule out any other possibilities showing up the parameter. On the last day, I remember sitting in the car with her, on our way to the vets to get the reports and get a conclusion. I turned towards her and thought to myself how can this girl have cancer! Someone who hasn’t even needed antibiotics once in life, has been fed well, taken care of, no fever, rare allergies, and a little digestive issue here and there that was always attended to with homeopathy. Infact in the 6-7yrs, we only went to vets for vaccination and we would just ask them to check her overall. But Gracy took a look at me in my thoughts, she just tapped me telepathically and calmly said- “it is Cancer. That’s what the reports say. Don't panic, don't fear it, don't do the things you did wrong for Chief in panic, trust me, we will be fine. All of us together will figure it out. You will figure it out for me, I know. And you will never let me down. So brace yourself up, don't make it an emotional moment at the clinic, walk with me like me- with pride, joy and head held high. And the confidence that of course this is going to work out. Trust me, leave your fears and treat this like just an imbalance in my body.” I sighed because I knew at this moment, it is our reality now. Like it solidified what was coming up next.

Moments later, we reached the clinic, got the reports and a comprehensive conclusion. Gracy was diagnosed with Polycythemia Vera, a rare form of blood cancer found in human and animals, where the red blood cells (RBC) multiply rapid for unknown reason, contributing to haemoglobin to be very high, making the blood very thick and leading to various fatal possibilities. There is no known reason for the cause of it and since it's so rare there are very few cases documented. And hence less conventional treatment possibilities. But there are different forms of it- primary and secondary. One of the possibilities is where it shows as a secondary symptom due to some tumour or growth on the organs of the body and in that case it is not a cancer, you know the reason, you remove the growth and it is done. And the other possibility is that it is infact cancer. So until now, we were doing all tests hoping it is the other option so it can be handled more easily- just removing the cause that posses the threat. Our vet even asked us to pull out her blood reports from earlier years to find any cue. So we were doing that, day time tests, and in the evenings, I was reading, researching, find the people and dogs who have faced this issue and talking to them. Our vet was helping us with her findings too. But as the days proceeded further we found out it is indeed a cancer and that it has been making its way in her body for years. Most of her tests throughout all these years had higher RBC and haemoglobin, but since that can also happen due to dehydration or stress, no one really paid attention to it earlier, until it reached a point where it can be called PV (polycythemia vera) But anyway it was the cancer for her. So now, we had the second call with the oncologist to understand the treatment possibilities. The only thing we got to know that can help her situation at this stage given her RBC had gone up so high in just those 10days, the solution was chemo. The first call with our oncologist I was inconsolable out of the blue and out of the ordinary. But by this time I think I had processed it a bit. I was calmer and was trying to work out the solution more and understanding from her.

So here is another thing you must know about us- anytime we have to make a big decision for our dogs or ourselves, I always ensure to check with them. Find their opinion and perspective, take their consent and if we are of different opinions, we do talk it through to have a reasonable and agreeable plan as a family together. Sometimes there is negotiation and sometimes there is just doing it. But in this case, when I checked with Grace after the talk with the oncologist, she told me and my colleagues too  that it's a decision we need to take for her. That’s the soul contract here. So we sat down with logic and intuition, spoke to our vets to understand their opinion and prognosis for- if we are going for chemo or not.Turns out chemo was going to be really hard on her. For the very reason that she has not shown any physical symptoms of the cancer yet, it felt too risky and unfair to put her through it. But we were in two minds, because everything felt risky. And finally we decided on a midway, let's try with holistic and energy healing first and then if nothing works and her RBC keeps increasing, we will go for the chemo. We were ready with  the prescription for Chemo protocol and the medicines available, the moment we see something major that needs the intervention, we will do it. And I am just so glad our vet agreed to the same. Being an allopath, it can be a challenge for some people, but not with our vet. She was quite open about it.From other people we had also understood, there is no going back from chemo and our vet too confirmed and we started the work. Our vet agreed to help us assess her parameters with tests every few weeks to keep a track of the progress with healing.

While this was going on, I was in constant discussion with my spirit guides, higher self and other members of my spirit team, to help me figure this out energetically. We put a plan in place, I also got in touch with my Bach mentor and colleagues, our nutritionist and especially with our vet helped us understand the level at which it is possibly impacting so I can attend to it with Bach remedies and MTA healing, that I do.

And hence started our healing journey. Simultaneously I was doing healing for myself to be able to keep my attachment with her as her companion aside and be her healer as needed and her caregiver and companion as needed. Inbetween all this, Chief was still not out of the woods so we were working on him. The MTA healing as shared on the instagram profile (adding link here: https://www.instagram.com/reel/CpeVbrsIWqN/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link&igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA== ) was developed around that time that works on the tissues, cells and DNA of the being along with the energy body. It was channeled by me specifically for her. Now coming to the practicality and plan B: In discussion with our vet, we had kept a deadline of a few weeks and RBC/ haemoglobin count to certain level until which we try with holistic first before thinking of going for chemo. All keeping the risk in mind. We did blood tests every few days to keep a check on the increase, while doing the healing. We were so happy to see her abnormalities started getting contained within just 2 weeks and by 3 months we were able to contain it completely to an optimum level. It's been more than 20 months now, we haven't seen the parameters going high enough to be fatal for her. We still continue with the regime once every week to keep it under check and it has been working pretty well. We had only a few months with her at that time, and with the blessings of our spirit team, Universe and the support of our experts, now we have crossed 2years with her diagnosis and she is healthy and happy. She is energetic as usual and goes for her walks everyday, enjoys everything she did earlier, probably a little more. ✨✨✨

Gracy is going to be 9 years this year in a few months and we are hopeful to continue with this status quo and make the best of every single day we have together. And in the meanwhile, we hope to continue to help others as well, with everything we have learnt and figured. Her journey has been an inspiration for me and has given me the confidence to help more people and animals on the similar journey in the last 2years with my practice and modalities at Sacreosal.